In just a few hours the year will change from 2023-2024. In 1974 my mother was hoping I would be born the night of the new year, though. God had another idea. Many people say that I was born on the 7th day because 7 is a lucky number. Some have even gone out to say that 7 is a Godly number. Either way, I came right when God had intended for me to come. I believe that God has destined all of us to be born on specific days and times because He had a perfect plan that would start at that very moment of life. Each of us live out that plan and even when you have no idea what plan God has for your life, your life is already in the plan of action. For so many years after I became a Christian I wondered what plan I was apart of, why would God want me with Him, how could I be apart of any part of a perfect plan. I was just a me, I was broken, abused, raped, lied to and lied about. I was handicapped, born with both mental and physical issues that no one wanted to account for. Why would the God of the universe want ME?
Even as I grew in the faith. Even as I saw the miracles that God would show me, I still didn’t understand why He wanted me or what I could ever offer to help Him.
After these last few years, I realized, that God was using me my whole life. Even when I was trying to show that he didn’t exist. Even when I yelled out to Him that neither did I believe that He existed and I would never want to. He was using me!
Just like you, your whole life He has planned out. Yes, some of it sucked! Some of it hurt! You tried to disprove Him. It is possible that you were told He doesn’t exist or that if you don’t believe in Him, things won’t be bad. I am here to tell you I get it! I understand and so many other people understand too. We also understand that even in the pain, even in the quietness, the loneliness, the fear, the tears, there IS a GOD that loves you, that holds you, that hugs you and even though everything is wrong, He is right. He is the only right. I couldn’t understand why I had to go through all the pain as a child and even as a grown-up, but then I realized that God isn’t in control of the sin or the stupidity of people. He doesn’t control the demons and Satan whose primary goal is to steal and destroy. However; God CAN use the bad to create good, just, and love.
My baby died so that I could live eternally with Him. I had to walk up and down the road for 9 hours in labor 3 months early to save my husband’s life. My husband had to lose the only job that he knew to allow us to see and understand what it meant to be poor. I had to have addictions so that God could show me how to help others. I was abused and raped to prove that God can use me. I had to have Trisomy X to show that even handicapped people have a purpose on this Earth. I had to have a brain bleed and fight for my life these last few years to show how God can do miraculous things even today.
As I go into this new year my paradigm has changed. I am no longer wondering how God could use me, I already know. Now, I am going to live the rest of my life, He has miraculously given me to prove that He isn’t just able to make the brokenhearted whole, but He will do it in a mighty way that no one can fathom.
In the New Year of 2024 if you don’t believe that God can…take a chance and ask Him to make Himself real to you in all your situations; the good, bad, and the ugly. I have no doubt that you will find that YOU ARE ALREADY A PERFECT PLAN